break the wave before us

These days, I know I'm underwater; foam from passing waves is dancing around my head.

"I have no rulebook for this situation."
(Alec Baldwin, in "Elizabethtown")

Except maybe I do have a rulebook. The older I get, the more I can see the water coming from around me - not towards me. And much like the cold days at the ocean where it makes no sense to be in the water I take a breath, run, and let the water hit me full on. In that moment, it is a baptism where I see glimpses of all the things that make me alive; it is a symphonic swell which takes me with it.
Giddy with excitement, I turn around, look at the safety of the shore, and laugh. 


"I had my whole life been a bell, and never knew it until at that moment I was lifted and struck"

-Annie Dillard "Pilgrim at Tinker Creek"